Sunday, February 21, 2010

Alone.

I feel alone. I feel half dead and like everything around me,
including me, is dying. Everything is becomming a routine. I keep
writing songs because they lift my spirits up and stuff. They keep me
going. If I didn't have music, I would be in Texas right now with
Nolan and Marissa bawling. I haven't cried in a while. Like, actually
cry. And I miss it. I'm like the most absolute strangest person living
on this planet. I'm so confused with what I want out of life. What am
I doing right now? Every little action I make I end up critizising
myself. I just, feel lonely. I need someone in my life to hold onto
right now. Somebody I can believe in and they believe in me. I've
noticed I DO have people I can talk to. And that, literally is such a
blessing. I love every single one of my friends and I can't thank them
enough for everything they do and have done for me. Really, thanks. I
love you guys.

Besides the whole lonliness part Ive been really happy thwlese past
few weeks. And that makes feel refreashed. I haven't been that happy
in a long time. Finally it's back. Finally IM back. I've been great,
in general. Most of it has to do with Miley to be completely honest.
Idk if you guys have noticed but, if she's pissed off then I'm pissed
off. If she's happy then I'm happy. If she's heartbroken I'm about to
go on over with junk food and a shovel and two pairs of gloves. Oh and
tissues fosho. But Liam is a great guy. He is so good to her and
she's the happiest she's been for a long long time. And that right
there is all I could ask for. My bestie to be happy with whom she
loves. That all I need. Beside food and that stuff.

Random stuff: so you know how in the movie Pride and Predjudice they
talk like, old time lingo? I SO want to! They sound so damn smart!
It's great! Anyways. That's all. I love you guys. I'll be tuhweeting
soon! Kaip! :)

xoxoxox,
demiiiiiiii

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4 comments:

  1. Just wanted to share a verse of scripture...Joshua 1:9 says "Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." I know that when you're lonely, you're lonely and you want a person to be there to comfort you..I've been there...but remember that God is a better friend than any that you have or that could be there for you. He is that friend that will stick closer than a brother. And best of all, he is ALWAYS there. and he knows what you need. he knows you better than you know yourself. So remember Jesus love you, Demi, and he's always here for you :)

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  2. Oh PS: I wish we spoke in old time lingo all the time too...I think I just might try it out ;)

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  3. Hey Demi, I am working on some things in Hollywood too and I decided to click on your blog and it made me feel a lot better because I feel the exact same way as you do on so many of these things and many of these things have happened to me as well. There's so many times where I felt like I wanted to quit, and the reality of how it works is definitely a shock from one's previous dreams. There's definitely many who feel exactly like you do, and I know this isn't some "poser".

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  4. love the random old time lingo:D haha i'd love spoke like that. we should practice;)
    anywho, i know wt you mean.. sometimes its so good just to cry and be carefree.a child.
    but your doing so well!we are all supporting you 100% ! im always looking up to you. your music makes me happy.i know that might sound so boring or like nothing to you, but it really makes me HAPPY! i go to university every day listening your music on the train..the lyrics, melody, the way u sing it..its perfect:) makes me smile and love life!

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